Thread:Fangirl111/@comment-98.198.193.122-20140704030358/@comment-5952365-20140815042337

....I just finished reading this thread again (because I was bored)...Well, I'm really glad and happy Ember trusts me :) and she actually has gotten me to things for her, like ask the users she's not so fond of for their opinions on the fonts (which you already know about because you're apart of it), so I am really happy she trusts me enough to let me handle everything, I also think it's good if she doesn't and takes a break from it, she even said herself that she can't handle it anymore, but I also know she doesn't trust a lot of people, so I'm glad I'm actually one of the people she does trust :) I do try to be fair, though sometimes it is hard.. and Nikki actually did tell me she reads Ember's conversations with other users, which actually disturbed me a lot...but you know, it's her choice, so whatever. I can't control that, and Ember's right, she probably does or did read this too, since she did ignore Ember (and me : but I'm trying to talk to her about it, I really would like it if they could finally be friends. Though, no offence to either of them, they both don't seem to be very willing to listen or try. Well, technically, Ember did try to and did try to be nice too, but Nikki isn't listening and keeps doing the same things that make Ember mad over and over.. That doesn't help at all. But Nikki did stop deleting comments and replies! As far as I know of anyway, and that is good! :) But Ember's right, I'm not going to block her or drop her from being an Admin, though when I think about it, I don't think Nikki or Val understand what being an Admin is, just that Val puts "Guardian boss" for herself proves that they don't. Admins aren't "bosses" of any Wiki or the users. That's not what they're supposed to do. So I have to doubt they truly know what they're doing.. And yeah...I didn't want her to know about my talk with Nikki about deleting peoples comments and replies without a reason because Val and Nikki did still blame Ember even when she wasn't here or knew what was going on, and they knew that. I knew if I told her she would be more mad and hurt but I had to tell her in the end anyway, and I was right... But *nervous laugh* I know Nikki's lucky I defended her...But Ember's right...It does seem like Nikki and Val (and even Guardians ROTG) try to do everything just to upset her... And I agree with what you and Ember said about Pitch and how they treat him. But Val also confuses me at times as well...and I knew what Val did hurt her. And what probably made it worse was when she posted the crying pics *facepalm* Ugh, Val, really? That was your best decision? -_- Ugh. But I do believe and hope there's good in everyone, however, I am fully aware there's bad too. It doesn't mean I haven't been in pain or seen/done anything bad, it just means I still believe in love and true good. And I do. I also believe in miracles and magic. And I don't like giving up on people. I HATE it. But Ember's right, I might get mad or yell at you, but I will let it go and keep trying. I hate giving up on people and won't do it. I refuse to give up. How do you think I've been friends with Ember for so long? I won't give up on her and I don't care what people think or say about her. I don't care if they tell me she's "evil" or "a waste of my time" they also said I'm a freak and I DON'T care what they think anymore. Of me or her. At least this "freak" has a heart, unlike them. But LOL I guess I am that guy aren't I? XD I'm sorry, I don't mind getting advice but don't tell me what to do! XD LOL, yeah, it doesn't really make sense to me either.. I don't know, I wouldn't say no one knows it better then me...I mean, I can't be the only one, right?...Okay, I'm more hoping I'm not the only one... well...she's right about the not being okay thing...okay, now I'm really hoping I'm not the only one, no I can't be, that's impossible! I'm sure there are other people like me!...I think...I hope...But I always thought Ember's problems were THE WORST, so I'm really surprised she thinks mine are..At least I still have my siblings, she doesn't, I NEVER want to lose them...If I did I'd have nothing left from before.. I'm not sure if Ember not crying is good or bad...I think she's either healing or something really bad is going to happen soon... *Tilts head and blinks* ...I never really thought I was similar to anyone....maybe I'm not completely alone...I hope not...but Ember is right. I do feel really lonely and left out a lot...and it actually hurt me too when Nikki and Val blamed Ember..It's like, they don't even think of me, just Ember, and it makes me feel left out a lot....I dunno...I'm told that whether or not I like it, I am part of their family but I just don't feel like I belong...anywhere actually...though I wish I did...but I can't help but wonder if they miss me as much as I miss them...though I don't suppose dead people can miss anyone...still...I do miss them...a lot....but I actually don't like being told I'm part of their family...I'm not and never will be. They CAN'T replace them and I'll never accept it! Even if Jace and Mallory do...No. Jace and Mallory are MY brother and sister, I take care of them, I always have and I will! NOT them! And I don't like when they try to. I don't belong with them, but I hope some day I will find where I belong...