Thread:Fangirl111/@comment-8014223-20140807193200/@comment-5952365-20150219064048

Don't know how...everyone is a dummy...almost everyone...don't know how Sib isn't...but somehow...she must be very smart...because somehow, she broke through to Blake...she broke through to me! Iron is the one who made me care, but only through his own foolishness, but Sib...she's the real person who helped me. And Blake too! She actually listens and cares about how we feel and what we're going through...And she doesn't even act dumb about it like Iron does! She's....she's truly something different...much, much different....I wish I hadn't of been so ignorant...I COULD HAVE STOPPED THIS!!!! I could've talked to her more, I could've stopped Val and Nikki and you and Iron when you all first joined, then the Wiki I truly love and care about wouldn't be nearly ABANDONED NOW!!!! If I hadn't of left....I COULD'VE STOPPED "JACK'S SISTER" RIGHT IN HER TRACKS IF I HADN'T OF LEFT!!!!!!!!! I COULD HAVE PREVENTED ALL OF THIS!!!!!!!! I SHOULD'VE STAYED!!! I SHOULD'VE TALKED TO SIB WAY MORE!!!! I SHOULD'VE TOLD HER WHEN I WAS HAVING TROUBLE WITH ANOTHER USER!!! I should of let her help me....I should of had more faith in her...especially since she's already proved over and over again that she's trustworthy...BUT I'M THE STUPID KIND OF DUMMY!!! AND I DIDN'T SEE WHAT I COULD HAVE STOPPED!!!! I WISH...I wish...I wish Sib would come on more....I wish I could make it all better...I wish I hadn't of been so stupid and ignorant...especially to The Rush....I wish I could stop blaming myself for everything, I wish I didn't feel like everything was my fault....I wish I could have protected Blake better from all those stupid bullies, I wish he would be happy again...I wish I could have saved them..all of them...I wish I wouldn't of stopped myself from using my powers...I wish I hadn't made that wish...selfish wishes shouldn't come true...selfish people shouldn't live...they don't deserve to...but EVERY time, no matter WHAT, the SELFISH people get to live and get everything while the good people suffer and die! I wish that would STOP!!! I wish I would've known then what I know now...I should've been nicer to the people I actually care about...like Sib, and The Rush, and Iron and LJ and....and...AND ALL THE OLD USERS WHO I IGNORED!!!!!!!! I wish I could stop feeling so empty inside...I wish I could be happy like Mallory and smart like Jace....I wish I could be a smart dummy like Blake....