Thread:Fangirl111/@comment-5952365-20151027202222/@comment-5952365-20151208220241

Casey got a collar, so now I know how to spell her name, it's "Casey" :P What's that supposed to mean tho? :/ ("liiiiii!") Oh, okay, Blake's kinda the same way, he can't really say no to people, mostly because he doesn't want to hurt their feelings :/ I don't know, maybe it's too late to change anyway...I don't know, if you're told being bad is a good thing, it's kinda hard to believe it's the other way around when you're older...I don't WANT forgiveness! Not from myself, not from anyone! I want to them to pay! I want them to suffer and die in the worse pain possible for what they did to me! To Joy! To my mom! I want to hear their screams as they slowly die! THAT'S WHAT I WANT! I can't forgive and I can't forget! Don't you see? I can't let go of my anger, or I'll die! It was what kept me going for so long! It's all I am! Just anger! And the more I let go the more empty I feel inside! It's bad enough one of the people who hurt me when I was 6-7 just died and I never even got to do anything about it, but I can't let go! I have to hold on! Even if it hurts...Well, it's late for that now, since it's December now...but when can you do it now?...

Exactly...Ugh, I guess I'm really just the same girl I was years ago...just a scared pathetic little girl waiting for her next order, never saying what she wants because she's too afraid she'll be hurt if she does...It's not okay...it's really not...I only ever trusted 2-3 people in my life, and one of them tried to KILL ME!!! Blake's the only person who hasn't ever tried to hurt me! Even when we disagree...And I don't even know why...He says he couldn't hurt someone he loves, and that he loves me, but I don't even know what love is, truthfully...And I sure as bleep don't know how to see it... Thanks, I know, she's Opal.