Thread:Fangirl111/@comment-5952365-20151027202222/@comment-5952365-20151213030845

Ember: Oh...

Blake: *Nods*

Ember: Yeah, I didn't know it at the time, but apparently he would've been in big trouble if he hurt a kid again, since he'd done it many times in the past and that would've been the last strike, but I know my teachers wouldn't have reported it, no, they would've done the stupid thing and told him so he would've gotten mad at me. Like I said, I'm glad I didn't. Besides, they were bleeping stupid, my step brother was forced to go with him "by the law" even though he was terrified of him and now he has to take a bunch of meds to stay calm.

Blake: Yeah.

Ember: Yeah? It's no biggie, I'm okay now, it just has a weird looking bump. It doesn't hurt or anything. I'm fine, could've been worse.

Blake: But it was why it happened that makes me mad -_-

Ember: Yeah, I mean, he always had this thing for control. He'd scream at my mom "give me an emotion" and try to make her mad or cry, but he'd also do things like make his kids run around for a long time or control when they ate just simply bcuz he liked feeling like he controlled people. So when I became emotionally numb, he wanted to make me cry (like my mom) but I wouldn't no matter what he did (it wasn't defiance, I just couldn't) so he broke my finger. I didn't cry and he left mad, but told my mom it wasn't broken so she wouldn't worry. I pretended to be asleep so he wouldn't bother me anymore. Done, story over.

Blake: Yep, but he never did anything like that to me, because he knew I'd tell my parents, so I'd guard her so he wouldn't go near her. It worked most of the time.

Ember: And he seriously hated Blake, I don't even know why tho...I mean, it's not like he could say it was because Blake didn't listen or was rude or anything, Blake would listen to my mom like she was his mom just bcuz he knew that's what I would want (and trust me, he was a huuuuuuuuge Mama's Boy XD), I suppose he didn't like Blake because his little control things and mind games wouldn't work on him? IDK but my step dad was the kind of guy that would hit you and they say "I'm so sorry, it won't ever happen again, don't tell anyone and I'll get you your favorite ice cream" and then do the same thing 2 days later, so yeah :/

Blake: I don't care if he didn't like me -_- I hated him, I really could not care less what he thought of me.

Oh, okay XD Then I will...

Ember: I guess..

Blake: Okay, okay, I will. I don't think love is as simple as people tend to say it is. I think there are many different kinds of love and ways to show love, but I don't believe in "tough love" because I think actual love never hurts, but that was also something Ember's step dad would say before smacking his son, so that might be why I don't like that term. I think there's a big difference between liking someone and loving someone, I think you can like someone without loving them, but that you can also love someone without liking them. That probably sounds confusing, but I guess it's kind of like caring about someone but not liking what they do? I don't know. Anyway, I think there's also a difference between loving someone and lusting over someone, which is why I don't like when people say they love someone they just met simply because they're attracted to them. I think with romantic love that it's important to have both, as well as friendship, but that love and friendship are way more important then lust, which people usually disagree with me with and say there's no point if there isn't lust -_- I also think that if you truly love someone, you respect them, don't have to agree, but I think respect is very important. I hate when people say "I'm only hitting you because I love you!" and bullcrap like that, like I said before, I don't believe love should ever hurt. Obviously I love Ember, but the way I love her is much different from the way I love Sib and Maria, and even the ways I love Sib and Maria are different. I don't like that people get freaked out if you say "I love you" to them, because I think people often think love = lust, but that's not true, I could say "I love you Val", but I wouldn't want you to think I'm saying "I wanna bang you Val", actually, I think it's just kinda silly how people get scared by being told "I love you" XD I think there's love between siblings and parents and God and everything and it's all so different but important...But on the subject with love and lust, I think that also has a big thing to do with rape. I know some people will try to write it off as "oh they loved the other person but the other person couldn't see it, so they had to prove it!" and I just think that's so messed up in so many ways...honestly, I don't even think rape has to do with love or lust, I think it has more to do with control...In grade school and even still in high school, if someone's being rude or anything like that, we used to say things like "he's gonna rape me!!" or "he's probably being raped right now", but that was because of control, rather then anything else. And yeah, I know how messed us that sounds, and yes, our class was pretty bleeped up T-T

Ember: See? Told ya, he usually tends to have similar views as me. And yes, our class was bleeped up, in Grade 8 they pretended one of the closets was "the rape closet" and would make people go in it or drag you in and pretend to rape you. Yes, screaming, banging and everything included. If a teacher heard we'd all pretend nothing was happening, even if there was still people in the closet. It was really bleeped up...but yeah, I agree with what Blake said about it being about control, not love. And in case you're wondering, I only ever got grabbed by Blake once, but he got punched in the face by me bcuz of it and never partook in it again XD

Blake: Yeah...it really hurt ;n; But in Grade 7 and 8 I was trying to fit in with the other guys, so I did that kind of stupid stuff with them...it was a bad idea...Looking back at it now makes me cringe, I don't know why I wanted them to accept me so badly...

Ember: I think that was just a normal thing tho, wanting the other guys to accept him. I personally never cared and didn't do anything to change myself.

Blake: Wish I could've been more like Ember back then...

Sorry XD

Ember: I guess. Rad means like, cool and awesome. *Shrugs*

Blake: Yeah :)

Ember: Seriously Val! Is this why people ship us?? >/////<